Crashing Machines

Two machines crash and burn with me inside
In this situation there is nowhere to hide
Metal crushing around my limbs
Glass breaking and slicing my skin
The smell of copper and gasoline
I don’t know how to get out…..much less leave

Tires slipping on the wet asphalt
Like an ice skating ballerina
Get ready for the fight of “whose fault?”
In this mess can we actually find a winner?

There is no avoiding this
You’ve broken my machine
How do you expect me to move around?
This thought makes me sick

Flashing lights wake me from this daze
Is this real? I’m stuck in a numb haze
Don’t ask me questions
It’s not sunken in yet, I haven’t gotten the memory set
Can I blame the road? The path I was on was not for me.
I am a victim of this out of control machine

Thoughts like Daggers

My thoughts will kill me
These thoughts they play with me
My chest gets tense
My feelings are on the fence
I am positive I am losing it

My thoughts are trying to take me away
I’d like to get lost but not this way
You can take my mind but don’t forget my body
If I’m going to be lost, can I at least be a whole somebody?

Like daggers in my chest
I’m thinking of how bad things could get
I could think myself into a frenzy
I could think myself to death
Will it ever stop or is this as normal as it gets?

This organ in my head will be the end of me
I’m convinced it’s getting the best of me
It tells the rest of my organs to make me sick
I’m sick of being sick
My mind is telling me to get rid of me…

My thoughts are trying to kill me
They tell me all the things you are doing without me…
How can myself, be so mean to me?
Is my mind just messing with me?

Thoughts like dogs….
Chompin’ at the bit…
Looking for anything bad to swallow it…
My thoughts are making me sick

Watched

I can feel your eyes
Hear the thoughts in your head
Don’t put your judgment on me

Don’t watch me; don’t look at me like that
Amplifying the amplified
I’m not here for you to look at
Spying and feeling spied
I can’t take it

You are making this so much worse
With your eager eyes
You are making this a permanent curse
Do you want me to die?

Feeling your presence makes me sick
You force me to hide this
I know you don’t understand what makes me tick
I know you think I am a mess

Don’t watch me do this, Don’t look at me
Amplifying the amplified
The Volume of this is making me bleed
Spying and feelings spied
How do you expect me to survive?

Ashes

the freeway lights are on

like burning ashes from a long drag on the last cigarette i bet my life on

stuck in line waiting to be stuck in line hoping one day I'll get my turn

don't cut me off I'll cut you out this path was only meant for me

working hard to work harder maybe i need a new job

life keeps getting louder and i can't find me ear plugs

buy me a plane ticket to hell and if i never get there I'll tell everyone it felt......

exactly how it feels to be stuck in line with burning ashes at my sides

i feel like puking and I'll bet my lungs this isn't the last time

Devastate me

Take me out of my environment
Try to change my mind
Ignoring all acknowledgment
That maybe I am just fine

Devastate me
If you are going to change my world
By all means… devastate me

If you are going to crash this car
Let’s do this right
I don’t want to be riddled with scares
I want to go down with all of our might

Devastate me
If you plan on changing my mind
Crack my skull and let me bleed
Devastate me …but do it right

Don’t leave any questions
Don’t give me reasons why
Tell me what’s wrong
Leave me without a glimmer of light

Don’t take me on if you can’t let me down
I didn’t give my all for nothing
Devastate me, give me that shameful crown
You owe me this much…Devastate me

Stadium Love

Like an arena filled with people
And every speaker in the place
Is blasting the sound of our beating hearts
And your hands are holding my face

It started out as a slight buzz
Growing fast to the point of a storm
No one knows why this happens it just does
How can three simple words make me feel so warm?

You can’t remember what life was like before this
You would do anything to keep the sound from stopping
Thoughts fly away with the wind that surrounds us
Every part of this is addicting

Didn’t know it could be this way
Didn’t know I could be a part of this
This isn’t Coffee shop infatuation
This is Stadium big

Block Tears

I’ve never experienced someone’s clavicle
As I did the night you held my face there while I cried
It felt good like I had overcome a taunting obstacle
Letting out everything I had inside

As the wind blows and chill run up my spine
Your warmth quickly takes over and the cold subsides
Don’t take this away from me…

Your finger tips on the back of my head
Was an overwhelming sense of security
I let you squeeze me tight not run away instead
Lost all grip on my animosity

As the wind blows and chill run up my spine
Your warmth quickly takes over and the cold subsides
Don’t take this away from me…

This was what I am doing this for
Made it all worth my time, whatever that means
I have never enjoyed crying more
Amazing to be sensitive and let go of the machine