Thoughts like Daggers

My thoughts will kill me
These thoughts they play with me
My chest gets tense
My feelings are on the fence
I am positive I am losing it

My thoughts are trying to take me away
I’d like to get lost but not this way
You can take my mind but don’t forget my body
If I’m going to be lost, can I at least be a whole somebody?

Like daggers in my chest
I’m thinking of how bad things could get
I could think myself into a frenzy
I could think myself to death
Will it ever stop or is this as normal as it gets?

This organ in my head will be the end of me
I’m convinced it’s getting the best of me
It tells the rest of my organs to make me sick
I’m sick of being sick
My mind is telling me to get rid of me…

My thoughts are trying to kill me
They tell me all the things you are doing without me…
How can myself, be so mean to me?
Is my mind just messing with me?

Thoughts like dogs….
Chompin’ at the bit…
Looking for anything bad to swallow it…
My thoughts are making me sick

Watched

I can feel your eyes
Hear the thoughts in your head
Don’t put your judgment on me

Don’t watch me; don’t look at me like that
Amplifying the amplified
I’m not here for you to look at
Spying and feeling spied
I can’t take it

You are making this so much worse
With your eager eyes
You are making this a permanent curse
Do you want me to die?

Feeling your presence makes me sick
You force me to hide this
I know you don’t understand what makes me tick
I know you think I am a mess

Don’t watch me do this, Don’t look at me
Amplifying the amplified
The Volume of this is making me bleed
Spying and feelings spied
How do you expect me to survive?