Watched

I can feel your eyes
Hear the thoughts in your head
Don’t put your judgment on me

Don’t watch me; don’t look at me like that
Amplifying the amplified
I’m not here for you to look at
Spying and feeling spied
I can’t take it

You are making this so much worse
With your eager eyes
You are making this a permanent curse
Do you want me to die?

Feeling your presence makes me sick
You force me to hide this
I know you don’t understand what makes me tick
I know you think I am a mess

Don’t watch me do this, Don’t look at me
Amplifying the amplified
The Volume of this is making me bleed
Spying and feelings spied
How do you expect me to survive?

Ashes

the freeway lights are on

like burning ashes from a long drag on the last cigarette i bet my life on

stuck in line waiting to be stuck in line hoping one day I'll get my turn

don't cut me off I'll cut you out this path was only meant for me

working hard to work harder maybe i need a new job

life keeps getting louder and i can't find me ear plugs

buy me a plane ticket to hell and if i never get there I'll tell everyone it felt......

exactly how it feels to be stuck in line with burning ashes at my sides

i feel like puking and I'll bet my lungs this isn't the last time

Devastate me

Take me out of my environment
Try to change my mind
Ignoring all acknowledgment
That maybe I am just fine

Devastate me
If you are going to change my world
By all means… devastate me

If you are going to crash this car
Let’s do this right
I don’t want to be riddled with scares
I want to go down with all of our might

Devastate me
If you plan on changing my mind
Crack my skull and let me bleed
Devastate me …but do it right

Don’t leave any questions
Don’t give me reasons why
Tell me what’s wrong
Leave me without a glimmer of light

Don’t take me on if you can’t let me down
I didn’t give my all for nothing
Devastate me, give me that shameful crown
You owe me this much…Devastate me

Stadium Love

Like an arena filled with people
And every speaker in the place
Is blasting the sound of our beating hearts
And your hands are holding my face

It started out as a slight buzz
Growing fast to the point of a storm
No one knows why this happens it just does
How can three simple words make me feel so warm?

You can’t remember what life was like before this
You would do anything to keep the sound from stopping
Thoughts fly away with the wind that surrounds us
Every part of this is addicting

Didn’t know it could be this way
Didn’t know I could be a part of this
This isn’t Coffee shop infatuation
This is Stadium big

Block Tears

I’ve never experienced someone’s clavicle
As I did the night you held my face there while I cried
It felt good like I had overcome a taunting obstacle
Letting out everything I had inside

As the wind blows and chill run up my spine
Your warmth quickly takes over and the cold subsides
Don’t take this away from me…

Your finger tips on the back of my head
Was an overwhelming sense of security
I let you squeeze me tight not run away instead
Lost all grip on my animosity

As the wind blows and chill run up my spine
Your warmth quickly takes over and the cold subsides
Don’t take this away from me…

This was what I am doing this for
Made it all worth my time, whatever that means
I have never enjoyed crying more
Amazing to be sensitive and let go of the machine

Losing you...

Close your eyes
I don’t want you to see me
No makeup, no bra
No glitter, Just flaws

You won’t like me after this
So scared to show my skin
Preparing for the last kiss
Regretting, letting you in

You’ll be disappointed
I’ll be lost
You’ll be relieved
I’ll pay the cost

Just look away
I can’t bare you see me like this
I want you to stay
I’m so afraid we won’t make it through this

Call

I know exactly where I am but I am completely lost
I can’t even remember why I am here
Or how I got to this place…

My head goes from confusion to complete clarity, then back
I can’t even justify how I let myself get so far
This is so wrong, I’m so red
And I believe I’m falling apart…

I’ve been laughing a lot louder lately
While trying not to let the joke get out
No excuses this times let’s let this be found…

Inflated and degraded how did I get so lost?
I don’t know where I used to be
Passionate wakes up to pissed off
What am I doing, this isn’t me…