Losing you...

Close your eyes
I don’t want you to see me
No makeup, no bra
No glitter, Just flaws

You won’t like me after this
So scared to show my skin
Preparing for the last kiss
Regretting, letting you in

You’ll be disappointed
I’ll be lost
You’ll be relieved
I’ll pay the cost

Just look away
I can’t bare you see me like this
I want you to stay
I’m so afraid we won’t make it through this

Call

I know exactly where I am but I am completely lost
I can’t even remember why I am here
Or how I got to this place…

My head goes from confusion to complete clarity, then back
I can’t even justify how I let myself get so far
This is so wrong, I’m so red
And I believe I’m falling apart…

I’ve been laughing a lot louder lately
While trying not to let the joke get out
No excuses this times let’s let this be found…

Inflated and degraded how did I get so lost?
I don’t know where I used to be
Passionate wakes up to pissed off
What am I doing, this isn’t me…

AMR

This feeling has gotten comfortable
as much as I am trying to resist
it's killing me
maybe its for the best
as much as I thrive off of this
I just cant survive like this
it's killing me
draining me
ready to call it quits
my heart can't beat this fast forever
and I'm already short of breath
my hands are shaking
I've had more then enough
put my body to rest
I'm doing my best
it's killing me
I'm trembling. shaking
cant hold these bones still
my skin is rumbling
mumbling and crawling
help me, I swear I'm alive
It's killing me and I dont want to die

ALl

come back to me
its hard to for me to see
how could you not miss me?

I find myself chasing ambulances
show me death or a sign of life
my heart is contenplating advances
on this gloomy night

driving along the ridge
hoping to find you there
this is the first time i didn't burn this bridge
and it's giving my thoughts a good scare

come back to me
I know its hard to be
anything that comes easy about me

hoping for a car crash
a last chance at life
don't pull the plug just yet
I wont give up this fight
I'm looking for you

hoping its you at the door
I do a double take at all the white cars
I'm not ready to give up on something so pure

Come back to me
Its hard for me to see
how you could be so cold to me.

May I June?

Being ignored in a crowded room is a humbling feeling.
After a rough day weeding through limbs that have grown on my life
Counting the popcorn on my ceiling
My heart has gone on a hunger strike.

Surrounded by words too weak to stand on
Hearts not worth the break
Trying to figure out what went wrong

Not lost but numb at all costs
My body is trying to kill itself
Not drunk but sauced
Feeling my feelings melt

Surrounded by empty words
Empty friends and a forgotten verse
My body is getting lighter and my skin is getting whiter
Choking and suffering in this lonely curse.

So many bodies and so little blood
I don’t want to waste my time on you
Forgotten art of love
Too bad I have nothing else to do

Take Down

Dark bring me clarity
A sense of comfort in disguise
A spark for some charity
This blanket I despise

Peer through windows
Double check doors
Lost the strength
To let go anymore

Fear of Awkward
Can’t see me perspire
Just takes one noise
For me to inspire

Feel you watching me
Pretending your not there
Force myself to come to peace
With the intrusive fear

Tell myself I’m not scared
Quickly try to prepare

Light is too dim to
Hold back this dark

My Problems

I don’t know how I’ve become such a problem
I hate what I see
Nothing seems to be conducive about anything to do with me

A strong building with a cracked foundation
Trying desperately to fill myself in
Welcoming only wrecking balls in

Face is bruised
From the broken promises I’ve spewed

I don’t know how I’ve built such a problem
I hate what I see
Nothing is easy about me

Holy house in the middle of a land fill
Trying desperately to stay pure
Preaching to the garbage
Convincing myself I’m sure

Skin is scarred
From the bridges I’ve burned

I don’t know how I’ve grown such a problem
I hate what I see
Thriving to be unstable…You’ll see